27/2

1个月了。。

心情好了一点

；）

之前怀疑自己是不是有忧郁症

每天闷闷不乐

一想到不开心的事情

动不动就哭

：你有什么压力？
：我的压力不是来自什么
：而是你们对我的期望！

：我要你们鼓励我 不是动不动叫我不喜欢就自己出去外面作
：我要帮忙 分担。。。
：要不然6年前 就不会选自己不喜欢的科目 也不会拉着他一起读

：我说过
：我在意的 我关心的 我在乎的
：我才会激动
：要是别人的事情 我彩他都傻



很多很多话
我说出来了！！
哭着大吵一架 有用 ；）
把很多不开心的 在心里的 全部释放






现在
好多了。。

生活有目标
工作有目标
我有我要追求的。。。

my targets

27 th JAN 2011 I reached Malaysia..
a new scope, a new chapter of life has begun...
2 years of happy, no worries school life has officially ended..
many asked me
is it excited or is it happy to be back
for me ..
I MISS UK LIFE .. but who doesnt?
u dun have to worry for life, money provided by family, what else to expect
but it ended, say bye bye to that life
now I wanna start a new chapter of my life

On the other hand
I feel very stress and pressured to get back here- Malaysia -the life which I suppose to have
sometimes I do envy my sister...
why she can choose the course she wants
why she can choose the course she DUN want
why she can avoid those course that she feel difficult
and why cant I?

emo emo emooooooooooooooooo!
life without targets is boring < i know i keep repeating this
I keep giving myself alot of pressure
to learn this , learn that
hope 1 day i'll be able to use autocad that FAST
use solidwork
divide drawings for production
get familiar with the laser machine
turrentpunch machine
and all the machine of the factory
im stress, i dunno if i can handle all this

the AHPO Miao 签 somehow give me some enlightens
it said .. "prosperous ahead, but need to be patient"
做事要慢慢来 循序渐进 。。。 sort of...
It's true.. it enlightens me.. and also 开导 了我 in some of aspect inside me

yea.. too much things to learn, somehow it makes me feel so tiny
so start from little targets, little milestones..
that's make me feel alot better