27/2

1个月了。。

心情好了一点

；）

之前怀疑自己是不是有忧郁症

每天闷闷不乐

一想到不开心的事情

动不动就哭

：你有什么压力？
：我的压力不是来自什么
：而是你们对我的期望！

：我要你们鼓励我 不是动不动叫我不喜欢就自己出去外面作
：我要帮忙 分担。。。
：要不然6年前 就不会选自己不喜欢的科目 也不会拉着他一起读

：我说过
：我在意的 我关心的 我在乎的
：我才会激动
：要是别人的事情 我彩他都傻



很多很多话
我说出来了！！
哭着大吵一架 有用 ；）
把很多不开心的 在心里的 全部释放






现在
好多了。。

生活有目标
工作有目标
我有我要追求的。。。

my targets

27 th JAN 2011 I reached Malaysia..
a new scope, a new chapter of life has begun...
2 years of happy, no worries school life has officially ended..
many asked me
is it excited or is it happy to be back
for me ..
I MISS UK LIFE .. but who doesnt?
u dun have to worry for life, money provided by family, what else to expect
but it ended, say bye bye to that life
now I wanna start a new chapter of my life

On the other hand
I feel very stress and pressured to get back here- Malaysia -the life which I suppose to have
sometimes I do envy my sister...
why she can choose the course she wants
why she can choose the course she DUN want
why she can avoid those course that she feel difficult
and why cant I?

emo emo emooooooooooooooooo!
life without targets is boring < i know i keep repeating this
I keep giving myself alot of pressure
to learn this , learn that
hope 1 day i'll be able to use autocad that FAST
use solidwork
divide drawings for production
get familiar with the laser machine
turrentpunch machine
and all the machine of the factory
im stress, i dunno if i can handle all this

the AHPO Miao 签 somehow give me some enlightens
it said .. "prosperous ahead, but need to be patient"
做事要慢慢来 循序渐进 。。。 sort of...
It's true.. it enlightens me.. and also 开导 了我 in some of aspect inside me

yea.. too much things to learn, somehow it makes me feel so tiny
so start from little targets, little milestones..
that's make me feel alot better

22-10-2010 Sat

muahahahaha~~~

- ehem - clear throat -

my final project supervisor, Moyra Fowler

big thank you~

at first, I was being vy mean to you

对于你的诸多挑剔

keep saying ur bad words hahas

It's nice when someone can keep giving you PRESSURE

pushing you... 

helping you...

when you are doing something

eventhough the comments given are bad sometimes

but it was meant for you to be good, to be better!!

so

I thank you~

xD

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Got my dissertation result on the 22nd Oct..

satiesfied with it already hehe.

it was beyond my expectation.

worries all gone..

YEAH =)

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big big BIG congrats bbd~

haha

gambateh ok?

keep add oil

this is actually just a small mole (means vy tiny little milestone) xD

need to keep working hard

life is about learning

juz keep it on and on and on..........

same to me as well !!

and dont always

临时抱佛脚!

I hate it

...

牺牲理想都是为了我。。。

我觉得你很伟大


i



do not accept it

glad to have u you YOU

You are my sunshine   my only sunshine
you make me happy when skies are gray
you'll never know dear   how much I love u
please dont take my sunshine away~

I meant it

for bbd~

u know it right

x)

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my mighty, great, BEST daddy

knowing that you are sick TIRED

coz of the factory things

really

I wanted to

share your burden

and make u proud

wait another 3 months ok

we'll be there

x)

The cutest mum,

keep uploading food that u cooked

make us mouth watering so MUCH

missing your food

best food in the world

food at outside also cant compare

cheh !

Do i  inherit your talent of cooking?

I wanna learn it too hahas

something goes smoothly [hope so] =)

Finally..

submitted my dissertation on the 1st of Oct..

" A review of Modular Jig and Fixture System and

 its Application in Motor Exhaust System "

I hope it go smoothly and passed ~

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Malaysia Carnival Day
lot of hometown food there
quite delicious actually
due to the price lol
we dont really enjoying
but still
we 'd had some fun there~

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Stonehenge
went to stonehenge on 2nd oct
the day just after i submitted the report
relieved
happy
contented
=)

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Bath

Golden Retriever

love it so much

she ( assuming is a girl ) xD

is very obedient

often look back just to have a glance of his owner

we are excited

keep chasing the dog

almost be scattered from the tour group

=) 

just feel that their face expression are damn funny

almost the same

x) 

The spa at the ancient Roman historical monument 

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The connection between People~

well..yohoo..got mood to write something today!

突然有这个冲动,ok due to something happened today..

以前要讲的话,通通记得!

ok, 今天发生了一件事..

以前很想说又没说的话 现在有股冲动 真的要发泄出来!

连做梦都会被 gek 到哭 吵到哭 生气到~~~~~~~然后起来!!

还好你真的知道你自己以前怎样.. 还好有你寄给我的那封email...

还好你真的知道自己有错而道歉  (我希望如此啦)

要不然你我的心结 不知道几时才能打开!

几时才能恢复像以前那样 一起爬上popo家水池 一起冲凉...

别人说什么 我不在乎 因为那是外人! 因为他们不了解你

I dont care at all! coz it's only a nobody saying or commenting something bout u!~

甚至会丟出几句难听的话 说回别人 或给他们一个可怜的笑容

因为说别人是非 所以很可怜 =)

可是 但是!!!

就是因为是自己亲近的人 ! 这样说我!

我才会被气到~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!! urgh!!!!!!!!!!

那种感觉!!!!!!! urgh!!!!!!!

气到全身发抖!! 头皮发麻!! 很生气 眼泪很乖 排队流下来!!!!!

看这你写的msn headline! yes yes~ 因为我们通过这个方式吵架 宣泄各自心中的不满

我打字打到发抖 .. 真的是被你 gek dao~~~~~~~~~~~!!!   urgh!!

你说什么 你说我不关心家人 我不关心家里的事

只会和 wc 谈恋爱 !!!

she dun care about her family .. the only thing she know is how to stay wif her bf!!!!!

smtg like that.. !!!!!

oh gosh!!!!!!

不关心!!!     不关心会选这科来读!!!

不关心会拉 wc 一起来读 eventhough his 1st interest is Law!!!

不关心会因为想分担爸爸的工作 而去读自己不喜欢的科目!!!

I AM NOT REGRET AT ALL!!!!

IM VERY HAPPY TO TAKE THIS ROAD~~

BUT ! SOMEHOW!

IT IS VERY HURT THAT WHEN YOU ARE TRYING VY HARD TO CONTRIBUTE SMTG..

AND YET ~

自己人 ~ 你的家人~ 你亲近的人~~

不支持你 ! 反而这样说你~~

omgggggg~!

如果你看到的话..

我要说的是...

enrol   的时候　叫你选something related to accounting 的

因为这样比较帮得到公司　毕竟 accounting 方面要有自己人管比较好

你就可以管内部跟account　我和 wc 就负责 production

但是你说你不要　因为有数学　

我想说的是．．．

今天发生的事　．．

你最厉害 的就是跟别人吵架　这个你 Number1～

我知道你很有要帮忙的心　很side company, this family, Andrew~

很有要帮忙 daddy 的心　no doubt~ This I truly know

but then why weren't you choose something like accounting or smtg related to account to study?~

Im not saying that bussiness admin is not good

but it is reallly NOT SO useful when comes into handling the company..

accounting is more useful..

business knowledge u'll get it eventually when u have years indulge yourself in the society~

SO .. im not blaming you here... Im not saying you are wrong for what u've been chosen

I JUST WANT U TO KNOW TAT!

I care bout the family... what u had said to me is just RIDICULOUS!

U dunno how I gone thru the subject despite that I doesnt like it .. the only gal in class..

mad about the less interesting subject..

but i dun mind... really

The only thing I cared is .. you.. my si....

u are not aware of this at all ... u just know how to simply say out what u think...

so i said... luckily u've did smtg..

if not ....

....

i'll really hate you for this

we fight~ we fight~

but in the end..

we still love each other right..

nyek nyek nyek x)